I'm in Lysekil right now. Got a noew boyfriend! Lukas. Haven't been on here for ages.

Hey! Today is my birthday! I'm 18 years old today! I'm going to celebrate by buying my first legal pack of ciggarettes and then I'm buying some beer for the first time in my life. How about that for starters? Tonight I'm having dinner at my boyfriends house, a birthday dinner, and tomorrow I'm going out to a bar where my boyfriends brother's band is playing! And also my classmate's band is playing! It'll be awesome!! Also my sister came yesterday and I'm going to have so much fun with her here!

:D

About a week ago something absolutely fantastic happened to me. One of my classmates, Minik, a boy who is really funny and super cool, asked me a question. See, his best friend, my boyfriend (C-J), they two have this thing they do. Tey make little funny noises, it's hard to explain, but I think some how it's a way to express their love for eachother. Friendly love that is. And Minik said one night when the three of us were hanging out, he asked me if I wouldn't make those noises to with them. When he asked me they were making the noises and I was blown away, but I didn't show it. Nobody else does this with them! It's their thing! And Minik wanted me to join them! I did too. I didn't sound exactly like them I guess, haha, but it doesn't matter. It was like he accepted me and told me he totally dug me as a friend! AAH! I totally dig him as a friend! Totally!! Man, oh, man! Haha! Vi är bundisar helt enkelt! Sorry for the swedish but 'bundisar' is such a great word for me and Minik's relationship! It kinda means best buddies. Cus that's wht we are! We hate the same movies and hang out ALL the time! In school I don't hang out with girls, me and Minik hang out! SO much fun! I LOVE all my friends here in Visby! I am SO happy I moved here!

But one thing is not so wonderful. I said me and C-J are a couple (YAY, I'm in love!) and this other guy, Aron, is in love with me! I've known for a while but we are such good friends and have so much fun together so I can't just be mean to him and tell him bugger off. But now we've talked about it and he asked me about C-J and I told him the truth. I asked if we could still be friends and he said "yes, ofcourse but I have feelings for you beyond friendship". I said I knew and that I'd been sad and upset about that cus I have totally been. I've cried about it! Honestly. He is such a nice guy and I wouldn't give up on him ever! We are gonna hang out tomorrow and watch Futurama. We have so may insider jokes about Futurama and lots of other stuff too! Aah, man, I love that guy..!

I've spent this week with Minik and C-J (since Aron needed space *pfft at the expression*) and spent the night from wednsday til today, friday! It was awesome since I HATE living were I live now! I HATE sharing a room! C-J and Minik are in Stockholm for the weekend and I'm gonna sleep at my friend Ida's cus my roomate's boyfriend is comming over from Gothenburg (yes, they have a fucking boring longdistance relationship) and she wants me out of the room. Cow. No I shouldn't say that. She's one if the nicest people I know but I fucking hate sharing a room with her. But she's told me she hates sharing a room with me. Not with those words but with other words. Haha! Poor us, huh? BUT! The good news is that we don't have to live here until the summer! Apparantly, and no one told me this, they didn't sign for the whole school year! They only signed for halv of it! Til christmas! So I'm moving out of this dump very, VERY soon! Woot! Yay! *overjoyed*

*The first nigth I slept at C-J and Minik's (they share a room cus C-J didn't wanna stay at his place so he moved in with Minik and his family -a dad) I slept on they couch in their room but this night I slept in C-J's bed with him! Yay! Just thought I'd remind the future me cus that's basicly why I write. So that I can look back on the great fucking times I'm having! I really should write more often! I used to write every bleedin day but that's just because I was a fucking loser until I came here. Now I have actually got FRIENDS! Would you believe that? Huh? Well, well. wtf haha. I guess that's why I'm writing so god damned much in this post. May I should start doing that every time I feel like getting it all fucking out! Write a big ass post on LJ.

OH! And btw me and Minik bought sudoku books! Likadana! Vi startade en sudoku klan! Vi fikade med C-J och sen drog han tebax till skolan och då gick vi å kollade på DVDer och ick syn på sudoku böcker på Åhlens. Vi fick sudoku papper på matten i skolan och tävlade och tyckte det va askul så vi köpte böcker! Fan va kul! I love that guy man! YAY! Det var idag vi gjorde det! Jag har löst några pussel redan och skrivit datum och tid jagh löste! Fan va Minik å jag äger! C-J med! I LOVE THEM! I think they feel the same about me! Minik are giving me these little hints. Vet inte om han gör det med mening eller inte.

Aron watched Prison Break with me on tuesdays! We have Prison Break tuesdays! Yay!

i haven't written in a while and i feel pretty lame about it. this week in school was the week of shooting. our movie that is. there were three groupes and my group was the one who finnished first! yesterday that is. we also finnished according to scheduel almost everyday. there are some continuity faults that we are going to try and fix this week comming up. the editing week. the director and the continuity person are the ones who do the editing. but the director are aloud to choose one more to edit with them and she chose me! yay! i'm the photographer. i had A LOT of fun shooting. the actors were a pain in the ass sometimes and it was very stressful! but man was it awesome..!

i guess that's one of the reasons i haven't written but another one is that i haven't wanted to.. i don't feel like doing any of the things i used to do.. like writing here almost every day.. or read magazines i buy.. i've bought three since i've been here and i haven't opened them.... wtf..

i feel shitty right now cus earlier me and two guys were talking and i told them about how i got interested in movies. and they decided to RATE the "story"! and when they went into the next room (not even a wall between just a blanket that is hung up) they said to each other that my story was lame and they graded it 2 out of 5 instead of 3 like they told me... this really made me sad.... assholes.. i really like them but why in the name of FUCK did they have to do that??????????? i toled one of them about this site ad he found me on it but i asked him not to read my journal and he said he wouldn't but now i don't trust him.. i'm not gonna make this a friends only post cus I HOPE HE'S READING IT!!!! but i think he understood i heard them THROUGH THE BLANKET because i was really cold to him like a minute later...

we had a wrap party yesterday but it was raining so it wasn't a big party... hardly a party at all.. but i had fun.. i kinda bonded with mats, who you may remember...., and we are gonna hang aout with his friends later ad have beer but i don't feel like it now cus i'm sad..

i've been thinking about getting a tattoo for a while now and i think i know what i want now. i've been pretty sure i want something to do with red hot chili peppers or anthony kiedis. and i was listening to them ealier today and hear from some song "there's a love that knows the way" (from by the way album) and i fell for it. i heard about some girl who had her name aroud her wrist and i think i'd like to have it around mine too..the lyric of course.. my name would be SO lame.. i don't think i'll have to wait until i'm 18 though cus here there is a place were they don't check you're age as long as they know they won't get any shit from my parents and they probably won't from mine.. they won't like me getting a tattoo so i'm not sure i want to tell them...

when we finnshed the movie shoot i yelled "that's a wrap" and we all did high five and air five. air five is my favorite because of the sound i get to make.. i make the best sound of everyone... all the others can fuck off..

mats said that he thought that me and him would robably bond the best in the house. <3 we talked about his girlfriend cus they are havign some problems i think.. or if she even is his girlfriend.. i'm not sure...

i was an extra today! wooohooo! it was pretty awesome dudes...hah we got to sit on a hill for 5 hours. there was two guys who were in charge of us kinda. one of them was nice and encouraged us and was really cool but the other one was just plain fuckin mean.. fuck him.. asshole.

the movie was just some dumb ass sequel to a LAME danish kids movie! but it was an experience and I don't regret it. some girls in my class didn't want to come along the idiots. one of them was magdalena.. stupid.. we kind of had a fight today.. we got a little pissed at each other.. she almost got hit by a car when she was on her bike and now she wont ride her bike to school anymore! wimp... i can't believe that! how the HELL is she expecting to get through life when she gets upset by such a small thing! I almost get hit by a car on my bike every week! fuck it..

anyway there was this HOT guy there. he carried the equipment around. he looked like he was about 19 or 20 and he was bleedin gorgeous!! he smiled at me and i smiled back and we kept looking at each other and flirted haha! <3 but we never talked cus we were working you know :( and I don't even know his name and i probably won't see him again EVER! *sobbing* the other guy who was doing the same thing was totally hot too.....*sob*

my bike is at school cus a bus came and picked us up at school and dropped us off at location.. so now I have to WALK ALL the way to bleedin school.. we are watching "Birth of a Nation" tomorrow. for those of you who don't know which that one is it's the THREE HOUR LONG BLACK AND WHITE SILENT MOVIE FROM 1915!!! bloody hell.. we only have one class tomorrow.. from 8.30 to fuckin 15.30! jebus...

had dinner outside with Mats.. talked and it was awesome. we cooked separately in our kitchens but we both cooked the EXACT same dish! hahaha pasta and meatballs (swedish meat balls haha). I told him about my "fight" with magdalena and he said he liked that I say what I feel about people.. cus I told her I think she's a wimp.. I like Mats soo much.. but just as a friend now.. feels great actually. I told him my friend fancies him. a girl from school who has a crush on him. I told her I wouldn't tell him about it but I couldn't resist.. heh heh heh .. sorry.. I usually don't do that..

today was a good one.

little messy in school. edited some stuff but we had a lot of trouble with the computers. although bonded with this girl I didn't like before but now I really like her. we had some stuff in common: we both think Ville is DEAD sexy and we both have a crush on MATS! ARGH! but it's ok.. I had a little chat with him just a half an hour ago. we talked about his girl friend he asked me about school and we ate some it was AWESOME! I love that guy! he had a shirt on but it was open so I could see his chest and it was pretty sweet ^_^ art class with Ville was great but he's a bit mean sometimes. it's ok when it's someone else but when he questions YOU it's bleedin annoying. I was pissed for a sec but then I adored him again.

Magdalena was over to watch a movie Aaron (brother of Hampus who lives here, super funny guy) and I watched with them, had a microwave pizza (suuuuper tasty). then magdalena told me she and her boyfriend are probably breaking up! :( me and aaron read this same book which is so cool cus I don't think it's well known. it's called "the curious incident of the dog in the nighttime" it's bleedin awesome. read it folks. anyways hampus has this book with a list in it with all the things you should do before you die and reading that book is on it!! YO how cool is that?! AND Hampus said he'd give methat book even though it was a gift! He never wanted it and never wrote in it! YAY! Aaron wanted it and nagged Hampus to give it to him but he wouldn't haha! I rock. there are little spaces in the book were you can check if you've done it! how bleedin awesome is that?! i love that kind of stuff YO!

PRISON BREAK WAS AWESOME!!! tweener got some ;) mwohahah! abruzzi :( I HATE BELLICK

watched ice age on top of some people haha. we were in a bed, the four of us, and we were lying on top of each other and it was awesome hahahah!

I was gonna clean my room, before I got high... and so on HAHAHAHAH I love it!

i've totally given up on Mats.. I don't really like him in that way anymore.. at all. no kidding.

yesterday felt like it was sunday. I woke up at 1.30 pm.. shit.. stayed in ALL day, watched a movie, had a headache cus I'm sick. I still have a headache. Now I'm watching Boondocks, or whatever it's called. Never watched it before. All I did today was have a shower.

Soon I'm going to this relaese party apparently. should be fun. Don't know the girl with the record though.

I watched paris hilton's sex tape today. It was fun watching.

I'll update more later..

i forgot to say that yesterday Ville (hot teacher) talked about PRISON BREAK!! in filmhistory class yesterday he asked if anyone had seen Prison Break (cus we were discussing something that had to do with Michaels "disorder" or whatever it is) and I SHOUTED, I kid you not, "I HAVE!! I LOVE PRISON BREAK!!" hahaha it was embassaring hahahaha but funny. XD I was SO happy for at least 15 minutes cus of the fact that he actually watches PRISON BREAK! AAAAH!! I love him! we had a little chat today cus they check with everyone that they like it here and don't miss home to much. now, this guy is very serious so when he asked mee if I had found friends I said yes and smiled abit but he NEVER smiles back and it's a little disturbing..... but it was nice to be alone with him in a room... heh heh ;)

We finished writing our scripts today but I wasn't really up for it so I made the ending an epiloge instead. hahhaha. I thought it was pretty funny cus I named two characters after my teachers (Ville and Arvid) and something weird happened to them that was like a suuuper american movie HAHAHA

we also had editing excercises today and it was fun!! they teamed me up with a guy called Minik . I didn't like him at first cus I thought he was arrogant but he's not. first impressions are rarly right, my peoples. anyways we had a lot of fun puting a track to it and we tried the imperial march from star wars! LOL they film was a guy walking up a flight of stairs and then looking at a clock then a shot of a guy looking at him from behind something cus he had stolen the first guys CANDY BAR!! HAHA my teachers filmed it and they apparantly had a lot of fun too vus they were laughing like maniacs! haha. one of them said to they guy walking op the stairs "one more time with a little more angst" HAHAHAH lmao

soon i'm going eating at mcdonalds with a girl from school. the people i live with are going out tonight but i probably won't come cus i probably won't get in.. i'm not 18 yet .. arggh!! fuck know what the hell i'll do instead.. everyone in school is going home cus we have tomorrow off school. but my dad isn't home so i won't be going home. the party they are going to is this custume thing and two guys that are really funny are going as siamease twin cowboys! HAHA they are making their own costumes and everything! bahah

mats was just in my room a second ago asking me about some dvds and some other stuff. maria (the girl he's "in love" with) is coming over at 7 and they are borrowing dvd from me. but i'm not pissed. i'm not even sad about it. i don't think i like him that way. i just want him to like me and me a big brother too me. he was so sweet when he came in my room just now. ha asked me if i was coming tomorrow when everybody is going out. but i might be going home tomorrow over the weekend cus we have the day off friday. everybody else is. but i don't really wanna. we'll see later when my mom calls we'll talk about it.

anyways today i had gym class for the first time in this school. the teacher is a guy called Jonas. we met him once before at fårö where my field trip was. he is pretty good looking. dark hair. he has a weird accent though. he's from really high up in sweden andhe just moved here three weeks ago just like me. i like him so far. he seems to be very organized. i like that.

later we had VILLE! yay! my fav teacher! and good GOD he looked hot today! *dies* he is a sexy piece of meat my friends. believe you me.

there is a girl in the acting class who looks just like keepyourguns i'm tellin ya!

yesterday we had some script writing exercises and i named one of he characers after my good friend here at lj verbalthing i told her and i think she was happy about it ^^

for those on my f-list who are swedish/live in sweden i will be on tv this sunday at 20.00 on channel 2 in a show called "re:agera". some people asked me if i would be in the show and i said yes. it's about the swedish election this month and i'm supposed to be this girl who doesn't know what she wants to vote for and she's never voted before and stuff. i don't say anything i just walk around some election booths. there will be a speaker voice when i'm on. check it out yo..

ETA: my mom just called and i'm not going home this weekend so i'll be going out tomorrow . just hope i'll get in to the place otherwise i'll feel pathetic and go home and die.....

Mats is the guy I like here were I live. I was sooo wrong.. I DO TOO totaly have a crush on him... shit..

We all made up this thing were we have sunday lunch every sunday just like in britain. and it's soo much fun. we had pancakes and mats is sooo cuuute.. I just adore him. we talked about making our house like the big brother house! XD it was so uch fun.. we're like a family.. it's fun living here ^^

mats is soo cute.. ^^ I can't get over it..

I felt a little rough today.. this girl pissed me off cus she stayed over the night and refused to fucking leave! I was hung over a bit too.. *sigh*

I'm so tired right now. I have to sleeeeeeep.. bye bye kiss i love you all..haha